Part 1: Before I Ship
Ok well it's just now less than 30 days till I ship to AIT (Advanced Individual Training) and I have decided to do a blog thingy of my experiences during this thing or event or whatever you want to call it.
Well it's just under 30 days till I leave good ol' Vero Beach for Ft. Jackson SC for my training. I will be there for 10 weeks. I am training for to be a 63B Witch is a Wheel Diesel Mech. So basically I will be trained to work on anything from the Generators to the Big 5 ton 6x6 flatbed trucks. But just so y'all have a little back ground on my military career so far. I was 17 when I enlisted in the Florida Army National Guard. It was In January of 2007; once I enlisted I started doing Drill in West Palm Beach Fl, Even thought my parent unit is in Lake Whales FL. But I won't be going there until I have completed all training. Which By looking at it I won't be there until Feb Of 09.
Well enough about the past, I guess I really don't know what I'm going to type so I'm just going to let my fingers do the talking and see what come out I guess. Right now I'm over at my buddy Ricky's house watching the Gaiters vs. Tennessee game. So this is really the only time I think I will be able to type most of this, due to the fact that Call of Duty 4: Modern Warfare on the Xbox 360 has my Attention at home. I'm here with my good friends the Ball's. Jon, Kathy, Sarah, and Shelby. Which to say the least have been there for me when I have needed the support of good friends and a place I can fine refuse when my step dad gets into the bottle. And I can't forget Jeff. But more on why later. This makes me wonder how they got me into a Gator shirt and hat, much to my distaste. But I digress, I know I'm used to leaving my friends and family, But yet I am still worried about leaving them to go back up to FT. Jackson. It's not so much that I'm worried about them or their health while I'm gone, I guess it's just the fact that I'm leaving everything I'm used to and comfortable with to go to the unknown.
I know that I'm going to miss Kelcey and Sarah the most. I know this because Kelcey has shown me so much about me and myself in the time I known her. She has shown me what I want and need in the girl that would become my wife. And I know that no matter what happens in my live I will always love her. It's just that once I leave for AIT I know that we will lose contact because. I plan on doing my best to prevent that but well life happens and it's inevitable that we will lose contact. I will go in to the history of me and her later in this thing. On the other side you have Sarah. What can I say about her? I mean she is one of my best friends and has been there for me through thick and thin. But well Sarah will get her own little section too. Now back to Jeff, As unlikely as it may see he and I are more alike then either of us would care to admit. And on more than one occasion we sought each other's guidance on whatever was happing in our lives at the time. And I know I think I will miss our gripe sessions wile I am at AIT and then when I'm at college in Ohio. But I know that no matter what he's just a phone call away if I ever need his guidance in whatever is going on in my life at the time. I know I will prolly call more than a few time in my travels, I just hope he will do the same to me if he ever needs to talk.
Ok now where do I start with Kelcey? I guess I will start at the beginning and go from there. I don't know what ever made me add her one day on myspace.com but I am thankful that I did, she has been a very big influence in my life. And I thank her very much for this. I'm not sure if she will ever take the time to read this but if she does I just want to realize that I will always be here for her and no matter what if she ever needs me for whatever reason I will help her in any way I can. Even if it means for me to catch a red eye flight to FL. But I'm getting ahead of myself again. Ok well I first started talking to her in OCT 07 and I finally met her at one of her horse shows in later Sept. (BTW she rides horses and does barrel races with them (Which is where they have three barrel's to race around in the fastest time possible, Google it if you need more info)) And we started dating the first time about a week before thanksgiving of 2007. We lasted about a month before I messed it up by doing something very stupid, that I won't go into details.(and No it wasn't like I cheated on her or anything, if you really want to know then ask and I will tell you) Let's just say that if the roles were reversed I would have done the same thing. After we broke up the first time we didn't talk to each other for almost a year. But she was never far from my thoughts. Which was even more so while I was at basic training for the Army (which was from June 9th-Augest 17th 2007 at FT. Jackson, yes I know I get to go back there, Fucking sucks). In one of the few free moments that I could get I vowed to get our friendship back, and never to let it fall by the way side And I kicked myself many times because I never got her address before I left. Which I did every time I got mail, which was pretty much every day, Thanks to all those who wrote me. It helped a lot. When I finally got home I think the first thing I did was send her a message tell her that I wanted to hang out some time, and we did a few times. But I never got our friendship back to where I wanted till about six months ago. When it took a death of a very good friend of mine, Jessica Laurn Smith, for me to call her up and really talk to her. And one night I got a call from her telling me that she liked me and wanted to date me. She happened to find me at a very trying time for me, as I had just moved out of my house and was living with my friends. But I said yes and for almost 3 months I was happy and I did my best to do right by her. Well I failed once more, because I couldn't do the things I wanted to do with her because I was jobless at the time and was barely able to keep gas in my truck. And after we broke up the second time I was devastated once more. I got desperate to get her back and I tried my best to get her back until recently she put me in my place and told me that we needed to take a two week break from each other. II thank her very much for this, because as I am nearing the end of the two weeks. I talked to Jeff about this and a few others and have got it into my head that we will most likely never be together again. Which I think I can live with and alls that I hope is that me and her remain close friends and never lose contact, and I will do my best to keep our friendship alive. But the only thing that I wish, and I know it prolly won't happen, is that if you're reading this Kelcey you will understand, why you never had/have to be jealous of Sarah, and I hope the next section will help you realize this. If it doesn't then Oh well, I don't mind if you and her are never friends or if y'all can't even stand each other.
Ok well now its Sarah's turn. This will be a long one as well so refill your drinks and grab a smoke….. Ok you back? Sweet, well she and I met in 10th grade in Mr. Moody's world history class. I can't remember but I think I prolly stared at her the first few days in class, because well I was still single at the time (Hadn't had my first g/f by then) and well I thought she was cute. I think the second week we went to the computer lab to do some sort of research and she happened to sit next to me. I helped her out finding whatever we were researching, and me messed with me by messing with my mouse and stuff, and after that day we sat next to each other in class every day. Hell by the end of the year Mr. Moody was asking when we were getting married. But no we never dated and honestly I am thank full she rejected me so many times ( about 6-7 times, I know I know desperate much). Because I don't think our friendship would be what it is today if we had. She is the one reason I started to go to church down here. Which I thank her for because well me and lord have an understanding that wouldn't of come to pass if I hadn't started going to Pioneer Baptist. It wasn't till the 11th grade that our friendship took on a whole new meaning when her mom and family, well adopted me. This in many ways was a godsend because they were always a hard place for me to land if my life was spirling out of control. Which happened more than a few times over the years, but to go back to Sarah, I can't begin to count the many hours I have spent talking to her trying to work out the things that were troubling me at the time (most likely a girl, but for some odd reason I never talked to her about Kelcey, that was always Jeff, and looking back I can't for the life of me remember why I turned to him and not her). Now she has bent my ear a few times and I have givin' her tons of advice about well her mom and whatever boy happened to be in her life at the time. I know that if I had never got the courage up that one day in that computer lab so long ago to talk to her, I know I wouldn't who I am today. And I thank her very much for this. And like I said before, if she's reading this I want her to know that no matter what happens in life I will always be here for her and for her family. I know that no matter what I will not ever be able to repay them for all that they have done.
Now it's time for me to mention just a few more people that I know I'm going to miss while I'm gone. I don't think this one will be as long as the last few but hell I can't be sure. First there's Kyle Bates (I bet you thought I had forgot about you didn't you fucker?) Well what can I say. Me and him are well the best of friends and I know no matter how hard I try he will always be in my life, dam it ;) , but he is the crazy side I need in my life because well if he weren't here I would either be dead or in jail. But yea if your reading this man. ' We ride together, we die together, Bad Boys for Life'. Have a good one you fucking Jar Head. Craig Bates, Well man alls I can say is thank you for being such a kick ass dad and letting me chill at y'alls house so many nights. Oh yea and for letting me stay there when I had nowhere else to go. Every on Planetisuzoo.com and Fullsizebronco.com when I couldn't tell anyone my problems, y'all were there for me. And thanks for understanding my many many drunken posts. And if I have left you out I'm sorry it doesn't mean that you don't mean something to me it's just that I have forgotten you. Well I'm done for now I'm going to play some Xbox and then pass out. So until next time Later days.
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